i could become a hulk right now ! ! super angry ! everybody please stay away from my sight, or else u'll become a dead meat ! ! ! ! ! and i'm not responsible for that. i already warned you. but ! you say this deep down in your heart. you are masking here. while you are angry, you think. is that your fault ? you put a blame on yourself. definitely, you play with a question mark without any concrete answer. you just hang it there. without any voice and hoping you re able to erase it one fine day. you forced a sweet smile look for everyone in front you. here you are an incredible actor, play an heavy role to survived.
:'( tears rolling down with a speed of light. nothing could stop that. you're totally ashamed of it, you don't want people to see you in that darkness so that you cry in the middle of the night. you cried and cried and cried with thousands of thoughts in your mind. at that time, you feel that your breath is running out, your chest is about to explode ! you scream like crazy. who heard your yelled ? only your beloved pillow. tomorrow you wake up in morning, and smile. to survived.
:) you smile just when your face touch the blowing wind. you smile only when you see, think, feel about it. on your mind you only think this world is yours. you wanna live forever with that bubbly air. you have and maximum happy heart rate, until you could die now. for you, at this moment you don't know what is the definition of trouble, because you have it all. while actually, you're dreaming. you're in your fantasy. when you realize it, an unsure smile in your face. this is reality. you walk just like another day, to survived.
:] blank. you lost your words. speechless. everything you do, just do. without soul. you thought you made mistake. search it in the sky but it goes away with a wind. but you couldn't stop it nor to blame it. you swallow it with a smile. not even sigh come out. this make you strong, and suddenly it happens again. this time you get mad, like a wild bull yet you swallow it well. very well because you re just being more stronger. it doesn't stop there, again. triple. this is where you become a a very calm waters. you re a beautiful scenery of lake that have a calm waters, just like paintings. don't play with that kind of waters, you would never know what is in the water because this water is struggle to survived.
i am human too, remember ? with whatever feelings that i refuse to have it too.
sometimes, i'm moody.
sometimes, i talked with flat intonation.
sometimes, i reply the text only with a words.
sometimes, i stressed out.
but its only sometime.
and you say it sensitive.
how about another time ? i'm good ?
no ? yes ?
its selfish.
take me as i am, just walked away as you want. that is what you.
leave me as i am, just walked in as you want. that is also you.
i am not a robot, that have only "happy" in me. wrong.
stop playing with those feeling because you re playing with HIM.
i'm having this heart shape in my body but it's not mine. its HIM.
perhaps, HE will keep my heart only for HIM.
moga mampu menghirup udara percuma esok hari.
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