i'm a sinners

assalamualaikum mr.canvas..here i am again..updating you with a frustration..with my result..but still im thankful..terima kasih Ya Allah.. might be this is a feeling of falling from KLCC..rsa yg x brnyawa lg..i never hope too much but i do hope of increasing percent..but its not there..

back then..
it might be because im a sinners..
im not a good person..
then countless of sorry just for you..
i dun deserved for it..
because im not that person..
i'm not worth for anything..
yes i am..
but..
i will never give up for YOU..i'll seek ur forgiveness Allah..
i'll seek for your strength..
i'll seek for your pleased..
because my breath is for you..
my blood running is for you..
my soul lives for you..
i lived and die just for you.

:'(

routine

long time no see ! ! sgt lama x mnghapdate krn kemalasan melanda..mood nak update pun x mari..so x update lah..simple reason right..so accept that..(x de pun org tnya alasan kau x update blog knapa..jgn nak rsa retist sgt sara)..ttibe rsa nak update now..so here i am..with my dancing fingers updating you mr. canvas :) well..im home at home and always be home..sesekali je la hang out with the girls..but still very rare..so most of the time im at home..im a home person..family girl i guess..huhu..so obviously kalo dh kat umah tu jd domestic engineer la kn..so my routine are basically the same every day. it will be like this :

9am : bgun..good morning sara (x de org wish kn..so wish diri sndiri) dan brsyukur kehadrat illahi krn masih bernafas.

930am : cooking time ! mcm main dinner dash..sbb msak tuk bdk skolah yg kalo lmbt nak marah..kalo lmbt heart shape mula decrease. huh !

1030am : after cooking..sbb adik kna mkn pkul 1030..sbb van nak amek g skolah..(nape pakcik tu amik awl sgt x tau bcoz its afternoon session !) cikgu ke ape dtg skolah awl2..so time to tidy up the house..so sila amik pnyapu dan mop !

1130 am : done ! so mari tgok tv..remote sntiasa di tngn..gila remote ! !

1230 : lunch ! with my hero :)

200 : on9 and twitter..and youtube..and internet..and all thing that able to surf :)

500 : stop mmbuntang kn mata dpn lappy..and its hi tea time :)

645 : my queen of my heart is back..so cerita2 ngn mama..dan tgok tv jap brsama seisi kluarga :)

1100 : msuk blik..again..lappy is my bestfren :)

2,3 pagi : kalo ngntok tdo..kalo x tdo lmbt lg..the end of the day :)

those above will be repeat everyday..sgt brbeza ngn di merbok..bila time is yours..no one can enter to ur world..its your own..skrg ! mna nak msak lg..nak kemas umah lg..nak sidai kain lg..routine makcik2 sgt..but that is me at home..well..i guess rmai je cm tu..(nak sdapkn hati)..

but today kluar g cari kerja..sila jgn gelak bila sara cari kerja..tp end up lepaking with my old frens..its a very good time to gather all back after 3 years..mula la suma cita nak kluar..cerita dr zaman tok adam..smpai zaman futuristik suma kluar..kalo glak kalo x suma org pndang ngn muka annoying tu bkn kami ! sorry people..u hv to deal with wacko person here..huhu..

trnyata cari kerja nowdays sgt amat trlalu susah ! so business je la nnti..its a wish ! kesedaran tuk save money from today onwards is on..susah rupanya cari duit..kau sara ! tau abiskn duit je..ea, x ok..itu keperluan..hehe..but still..appreciate those things and person around you..job hunting will be continued soon :) kalo ade rezeki, ada la..kalo x de..domestic engineer x brgaji laa..pun bolehh :)

mood skrg merindui sesapa yg wajib dirindui..

my lovely cousin..haihh..jauh btol la johor..kalo x ari2 aku dtg umah kau la ! missing my diamonds girls..missing you..uhukhuk..sudah sara..get rid of it ! baikk..so mnjalani hidup for now is actually nothing special..biasa je..

and im stronger ! i had move on ! sgt ! i do struggle for this..and hope it will stay longer and  forever.

result nak kluar..so i dont know how its gonna be..always hope its good..haihh..result ni laa hhaaiii..rsa cm suma anggota bdn brterbangan..lets pray together :)

only now

rumah manis rumah ! im home..about few days ago..hello mr.canvas :) nice to updating you on my own bed..*pheww..heaven* dgn beradanya saya dirumah..brmakna tamat lah sudah full time student of information management in uitm merbok,kedah..this bring me a lot of memories..kalo nak cite mmg bleh buat subject  "diploma memories"..because we go through a lot..means lot lot lot lot lot of memories together !

its been already 3 years i've been a diploma student..dulu sblm jejak kaki kat uitm tu..menangis cm hape je..nasib baik x buta *cita p. ramlee sgt* but now..and only now i realize "ilovemerbok" terpaksa ckp je ni..huhu..after this no more classes at DS..kalo class kat DS msti tnya "DS yg mna 1 ea??". no more "brgurau senda" dgn classmate yg gila2..x de lagi msuk class lmbat " errmm, sorry miss..late..overslept "..no more asking to my classmate " weh. korg dh buat assignmnt ??.. " aku x study lg test ni..tawakal je la nmpknya" no more all that..no more rsa yg ya allah mlasnya nak bukak mata class pkul 8 sbb tdo pkul 4 pagi..x de lg stay up sbb buat assignmnt dlm bilik..which is bilik x rupa bilik..brsepah ya amat..sarang tikus cute lg..

i have classmates that are awesome ! fantabulous ! superwacko !

meet them "we are chaostic people" !

oohhh..already miss all of them ! dangg~~ of course will be missing the gossip girls lah kn..they are crazyyy ! !

mereka hotzz kn ?? tau.. mereka tau bkn saya..hukhuk

nak brgossip layak sgt ajak dorg ni..cnfirm meletopss..

curlass kau jemahhh..

bkal merindu mamat ini juga..nama dia mohd amirul kasyful nur. we called him "abang" becauce he acts like

our own brother..uuu..rindu abg..slalu study sesama ngn dia bila nak exam..walaupun setadi dlm fone..msj je

setadi..kau mampu ?? IT sgt kn..dia sgt baikk..nmpk muka dr tepi pun tau baik kn..dia juga hensem !

ahaha..dh part 6 bru tau abg hensem..tu pun msa last2 paper..rindu nak dngr abg buat lawak "bijak"

dia tu..rindu nak tgok dia pnya presentation yg wow ! ! he is a good speaker and presenter everybody..

last day kuar ngn abg..we had so much fun ! i cried bcoz of your touched msg ! sob..sob..sob..

alang ! ! our class rep :) kdg2 dia ni mnyakitkn hati gila..ckp ikut suka dia je..lempang kamu alang..tau laa..

bnyk kali sentap ngn alang..but he's still there to spread out the information regarding class..test..notes..

ape2 psal class suma tnya dia..lg2 bila not sure class proceed ke x..suka bila dpt msj dr dia yg brbunyi " ari ni class cancel tau..tlg bgtau yg lain..tq "..melompat cecah siling dlm blik..suka !class cncel is a bless for us..sbb bleh smbung tdo..huhu..pntang ade msa tdo..ZZzzzz..he is petite guys..yg ktorg slalu ckp 'alang pkai pampers '..he cant say R words with correct pronounciation..ahaha..mula2 knal mmg x brani glak..bila dh lama..x larat nak gelak dh..dia mkn x pnah minum air lain..msti dan wajib..air kosong..mnjaga kesihatan ke kesempitan wang ?? oppss..hehe..but..that is muhammad fakhri..our beloved person in class :)

and......a lot more to share about them..so kalo nak share mmg hangus trbakar jari nak taip..terkluar biji mata..sesungguhnya.sahabat..daku sgt merindui kalian..(ade mcm lirik lgu jerat percintaan x ?) 

seriusly..i miss them so much..having them..in merbok..is cool..they light up my world..they are only family in kedah..thank u so much guys ! u re superduper great ! kalo ade rezeki kita jumpa lg ea..love u all..mmuuuaahh..

only now i felt the family in us..

only now i felt having "abang" in my life..and we stop right here..

only now i felt annoying because missing them too much..altough we always fight..

we still smile and joking around each other..

only now i felt the loneliness losing them..

only now i do realise i miss and love you all this much :)