switch !

heellllllooooo ! ! yeay yeay jmpa mr.canvas ! dh brhari hari hari x jmpa..ehehe..bru abis paper..eh blum lg abis sume paper..balance 1 more to gggooo...and i was sssoooo excited..and i was ssssssssooooo scared..(sbb x bca lg kn) ..this is the day 25/3/2012 when my beloved cousin is already fly to do her umrah..uurrmm..x smpat ckp kat fone ngn dia bcoz im in the hall..exam ! ni suma salah exam td..but to you my beloved cousin im waiting for you..do take a good care of yourself..do it well kat sana tau..i love you ! damn much ! rindu okay..lama gila x jmpa..tunggu la kau..jmpa nnti jgn tdo 3 hari sbb bnyk sgt citer nak citer..haa..kejam cousin kau yg ni..hehe 

this is "we" and i love "we"

alryte ! back to business..entry for today is switch..switch ?? what switch ?? hmm..not really a big deal because i think its a norm.. quotes says " people change,so do the heart " i think i have to agree with it..obviously everything in this world might change..except for fate that Allah had written for us..ajal,maut,jodoh tu sume is not our job..it His..im talking to sumthing that can always change..for example attitude (rsa mcm buat essay exam siap example bgai) org yg jhat dulu..x semestinya jhat sekarang dan selamanya..and org yg baik dulu,x semestinya baik skrg dan selamanya..right ?? so do not judge the book by its cover..tgok la table of content dia..abstract dia..(demam assignmnt x abis lg ke ni ??) hehe..

and same goes to heart..it might change..from hate to love..from love to hate..this is real i think..kalo dulu.."aku bnci btol la tgok muka bdk tu" tup tup.."aku syg dia la aku rsa" haa kn..jgn bnci sgt..kan dh sayang..aiyyookkk..hehe and not to forget..from love to hate.."i love you..i miss you. i love you too..i miss you more" and now.." i love you..i miss you..."......................." no respond..why ?? because i think i lost it.. i think i lost the love for you..hmm..this might happen..sbb..dulu im the one that really fallen for you..but not you..you play with the word..you play with the heart..and now you lost the love i love the most..

everythings change beside He..

so i'll stick with You my creator :)

deny

assalamualaikum ! (bca mcm upin dan ipin bg salam) hehe..bru lpas paper ETR ngn record..ETR syukur alhamdulillah..(muka yakin) boleh laa..x de la kata hebat kn..tp..paper record susah ! sgt ! paper color pink (ingt sweet ke, tp susah) rasa cm nak bakar je paper record tu..jwb je la mna yg mampu..ya allah, aku x nak repeat..tolong laa..hope the upcoming paper will be fine..pls..be good with me :)

jap ! nak ckp..korg (korg ?? rsa rmai ke yg bca ?? ) kna tgok "jujur aku dayus" bkn sejenis buah2an tmpatan tau..sebuat cerita cerekarama yg aku x smpat nak tgok dan brjuta2 manusia yg kata cita tu was great..beto khusairy was awesome..in love jap..ehh..haha..so wawes a.k.a wawa pun download la cita tu (pkai bb yg laju bleh laa..yg ni wireless uitm yg slalu nak kna tumbuk ngn aku sbb lembap)..thanks to you wawa..sbb cita tu best ! yes i said best ! knapa ?? sbb i am the person who hardly said sumthing is good..and hardly like something..so if i said its good or best in my sight its good enough..x tau la org lain kn..lain org lain la point of view tuu..so silalah..(ke korg dh tgok?? ke aku je yg lmbt?? kalo dh tgok..saya malu !..masuk dlm selimut) hehe

stop dlu cter psal paper2 tu..newspaper ke..A4 paper ke..sesungguhnya x de kna mngena ngn tjuk enrty yg ttibe nak spooky..juga stop cita psal "jujur aku dayus" tu..deny..what are you try to deny ?? and why ?? i try to deny this feeling..the feeling that im tired off..this feeling by right should be gone now..and by right i shouldnt hv any feeling ! in order to recover my heart..i do locked my heart for you..and thats it..no more..let the heart rest..let it be alone..dun ever comeback again..

and..i cant deny what people talks about me..whether good or bad..its theirs..tp..agak sakit hati la kn..bila dh ckp mcm2..and end up "eh,sory..bkn awk yg ckp..kwn2 awk yg mngusik awk, awk diam je kn..sory ea" or " saya tau saya slalu sakitkn hati awk..saya minta maaf" and yet you still do the same thing..who do you think you are ? playing around with heart..before said something..before do something..can you be more considerate ?? well..no ones perfect..but at least..do think about others too...

im done with everything.

Achik & Nana Memori berkasih

                                                lagu zaman purba sgt..influence by asilah :)

ok2 tenang sume..tau la lagu zaman abah2 kita..its all about the lyrics..bkn sbb zaman pnjajahan punya lgu ke ape..kalo KRU buat lgu yg msj cm ni pun aku ltak laa..nak moden sgt kn..hammbikk..basically this song send me some sorts of message which is i think its "oohh..btol jgk"..so definitely..people you love sometimes will not be yours..kdg2 kita akn ckp.."lama kot dorg brmanja brkasih brasmaradana bgai...tp x jd ape pun"..so that is why laa lgu ni wujud..ceehhh..yela tu sara..its also about accepting the facts that people you love might love another person..alasan yg akn digunakn ialah "perasaan,kita x bleh nak jangka"..right..btol..tp ade jgk reason knapa perasaan tu bleh brubah..because you are the one that wanted it to be that way..obviously you want it..oleh itu yg mnyayangi tetapi x disayangi balik sila la melepasknnya pergi krn dia sdang bahagia disana..dan sbb x syg pun sbenanya..kau je syg dia..dia x pun..kau je rindu dia..dia x pun..kau je ingt dia..dia x pun (yeke ? if im not mistaken) huhu..motif buat summary lagu diatas ?? 

x tau..sbb bru trfikir..sbb lately ni bru fikir..setelah ade class jiwa brsama roomate dimalam hari..

final !

hello mr.canvas bru ! eh mr.canvas dh brtukar wajah ni..hensem x ?? hensem kn..huhu..tgok laa tuan dia..(tuan harus lah mnyibuk skali)..hehe..since 4 months ago mr.canvas sama je..so we change a bit yeahh..

alryte..back to tjuk entry..FINAL (meh nak highlight skit). okay everybody itu tndanya..tndanya..nak kna buat knduri arwah sbb x bca lg..this would be my last final tuk diploma (insyaallah) so..nak jd cm mna pun..harus, eh bkn..wajib mndpt pointer yg ok..x kata hebat or excellent..but okay..means..mnyejukkn mata memandang email inbox..nak mndptkn yg "okay" tula mcm nak gila..x tau la nak dptkn hebat tu cm ne..mau kna gila smpai abis final agaknya..msuk hospital bahagia 3,4 kali..(mna ade org amek final smpa gila sara oii..ni namanya over)..

crita dia skrg ni..takot..serves=nervous..malas bca..x nak balik kedah..suma ade..tp ! tu suma lah yg harus makcik tempuhi..makcik x larat dh nak lalui semua ni..bila lah agaknya ni semua nak brakhir (msuk dlm character makcik tua yg uzur lg sakit..brlakon skit)..tp makcik harus melaluinya..krn hidup harus diteruskn..sudah ! ! keje nak brlakon..merepek..(ala bru nak jd makcik tua yg amik diploma)..

biarkn makcik tu..sbb sara jafre ni..x baca buku lg ! bleh pham x ?? x bca buku lg ! and you are like taking your final sara ?? u re dying babe ! yes i am..long sigh...bila nak mndpt hidayah tuk setadi dgn fokus dan jayanya.."ni la dianya kalo kat umah..bknnya nak blaja..ntah ape2 di buatnya" bila pn.pauziah mmberi tazkirah..aku hanya mampu diam trpaku dan mmbisu..and i'll say "i love you mama ! " dan brlari amik buku pura2 bca..hehe..i'll love you mama..no matter what :)

bila nak mntelaah ni..dgn ETRnya..recordnya..issuenya..managementnya..adoiii...someone ! pls bring me to the mood..i need that educated and realization mood...sya nak awk sruh sya study..bleh x..bleh x..bleh x ?? x leh..x leh..x leh ! u need to be independent sara..hmm..yelaaa..all alone :(

ade jgk yg aku jwb paper cm ni kang..geramm punya psal kn..haa hambikk..tembus meja dewan perdana tu..dlm sejarah sgt ok..tuk mngelakkn perkara diatas brlaku..i need to study..i freaking badly need that..kalo x..kita meniru je laa..huhu..gila kau nak meniru..final doe..so kna buat cm ni laa..

buat ape tulis kalo cm tu..harus la aku tdo dgn nyenyaknya kalo cm tu..orite jgk kalo buat cm ni..fuuyoo..style kot..dh mcm alien pemalu je aku tgok..so guys..better dont hv any attempt to do this..hv faith in yourself..u are what u did..huhu..kalo x bca tu..kau goreng jela..jgn hangus dh laa..hehe..

mmg x laa nak high score kalo x bca..so mari bca buku ! might be buku bca aku..so in order to get busy..in order to be more strong..let's setadi, everibadi! 

nyways..gooluck to all that taking finals yeahh..marilah kita mngilmiah kn diri..rsa cm dr.fadzilah kamsah sgt..huhu..

p/s : i love you

miss

hello ! ! im home ! im home ! tell the world that im coming home..weee..at last ! ! dpt update di atas katil bilik..bleh guling2 brsama rasya (nama patung ea..pk ape tu..hehe) nak berenang brirama pun bleh..heaven gilakk ! hooraayy..perjalanan ari ni..agk lembap..sbb jln jem..oleh itu..mnyebabkn aku sakit bdn..aku ni mmg masalah skit..dok dlm bus lama dr waktu yg sepatotnya sakit bdn..tdo tmpat x ok sakit bdn..suma sakit..haihh..x pham ngn bdn sndiri..lmbt jg la smpai klang bndar diraja ni..around 630..abah jangka aku smpai pkul 530..almost an hour abah tunggu..ooppss sory incik jafre..lpas tu mngadu ngn abah..

aku : abah, sakit bdn laaa..dok dlm bus lama2..
abah : lain kali dok kat luar bus..

abah ni..that is incik jafre..my hero..i lebbiiuu lah abah ! ehehe..

iloveyoufamily..mmuuuaahhh smpai lebam..ahaha

entry tjuk miss..nak cter pe ni ?? miss yg mna ni ?? miss yg  cik tu ke miss yg rindu tu ?? (x pyah nak confused sgt la kn, cm la comlicated sgt)

definitely it will be miss yg rindu laa..miss yg cik tu mmg terpampang la im still a miss..just called me miss sara..dgn nada yg over..feeling2 ahli corporate dusta..ehehe..ok..sudah2 la merepek tu..dr dlm perut asek merepek je..ok..yg tu over..huhu

i miss you so much ! ! its been over 5 days..but this is what still happen to me..hmm

yes ! it is..ttibe rindu cm nak meletop dada tu kn..letupkn jela...kot la lpas tu hilang..x pun..hish..rindu laaa...allaaa..susah la cm ni..

sbenanya enrty ari ni nak ckp tu je..

saya rindu awk si hensem ! (dia bca ke??) x kot..so bleh la kau merepek psal kau rindu dia kat sini sara..

rindu ! rindu ! rindu ! rindu ! (skit lg meroyan la ni..)

tetapi hendak lah kamu sedar diri ye sara..ok2..tau..hhmm..

rindu nak say "morning"..rindu nak tnya bnyk kali "awk buat ape tu?"..rindu nak dngr awk gelak,lpas tu saya tnya "buat pe tu??oohh gelak rupanya"..rindu nak tgok awk snyum..rindu nak merepek ngn awk..rindu nak gduh ngn awk..rindu nak check fone ade x msj awk..rindu bngun tdo trus nak call awk..rindu nak tnya awk dh mkn,lpas tu kantoi saya yg x mkn lg..rindu nak wish nitez kat awk..suma awk..nak ckp rindu awk smpai bila pun x abis..tp x de dh suma tu..suma tu x de tuk saya je..tuk awk yg happy kat sana..smile and laugh always ye..do take a good care of yourself..even i know u re better rite now..

I stalk your profile - Jazz Hayat (Animation)

words are pain enough

hye mr.canvas..long time no see..well..im here again..i might be too busy for this couple weeks. Assignmntnya..presentationnya..testnya..itu la ini lah..duniawi sume tu ! (eh, knapa ni ?? over kn) so oleh krn itu bru ari ni rsa nak update..6/3 nnti will be end of our presentation and ! killer presentation..sila persiapkn diri ke tali gantung..lpas tu 14/3 dh start final..relax je kn taip final..x tau tu last final..nak trcabut suma organ yg ade..last paper will be on 29/3..lpas tu insyaallah..tamat diploma :) doa la bebnyk supaya result ok..

nak mnyeru blek semangat yg hilang ni..yes, i lost it since that day.. this feeling showed up in me again..which is not good..which is im not comfortable with it..and i simply don't like it ! tau x rsa yg..nak baring je..rsa yg mcm x nak buat pape..rsa yg 'just leave me alone'..rsa yg useless..rsa yg merepek ni lah !

rsa ini ditambah dgn sakit hati bila "ni nak cari gduh ke ni ?" kata2 ni yg kluar..jujur..x pnah dngar awk ckp cm ni..this is 1st..and the last..haa..sentap..sentap la tu..yes i am..mungkin jgk sya yg cpat terasa ke ? might be..tp x per laa...abaikn..its actually..hearing harsh words from the one you love is so heartbreaking.

msti rsa annoying kn bila mungkin bnda remeh cm tu make u feel..trasa ke ?? laa...itu pun nak trasa..but dun forget..words are sharper than knife..again..i endure it..harus sdar dimana kedudukan itu..dan siapa diri itu..jd saya berundur diri..(kau undur ke kau ke depan ke..kisah ke ??) tau la x kisah..alryte..whatever it is..since im done trying, if you want me in you life, let me know.

today u re leaving..towards ur happiness..which is good for you..u re back for your loved ones..i can see ur smile..and for me..its a last one..no more after this..i saw u go..thank u for the memories..pain..tears..smile..laugh..anger..love..all of that..u re still and always be my one and only.

you always know im here for you..no matter what..no matter how..no matter when..no matter with who u are..i always be there..but..

don't take someone for granted just because you know everytime you push them away, they'd always come runningback for you...because one day..they won't !