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Friday, 26 July 2013

answer it

salam 17 Ramadhan alls :)

try to answer those question. try your best.


how if this is your last Ramadhan ?

who owns you ?

who your hearts belong to ?

how did your life being this wonderful ?

why your heart in pain, happy, and sober ?

did you ever think, did yourself fulfil the syariah ?

you try to change what HE gave to you, why ?

how grateful you are towards your life ?

did you say 'Alhamdulillah' today ?

how did you start your day ?

did you ever think, one night in barzakh ?

you study for what ?

you're in love for what ?

where did the food you eat comes from ?

did you ever cry in front of HIM because of your sins ?

how much you recite the Quran ?

how much in a day your tongue wet with zikrullah ?

how many sunnah Prophet Muhammad s.a.w did you practice ?

how many second you think, 'what if i dead ?'

did you do a thing and said 'i did this for YOU ya rabb'?

did you think about Allah ?

how much investment did you invest for your akhirah ?

how much this world grab you, instead of the eternal world ?

how much did you give, instead of receiving all the nikmat from HIM ?

there could be thousands of  questions more, but those question enough make me stunned. make me feel nothing but a slave. none of things that you say yours is yours.

hidayah need to earned, not to wait.

think.

salam.

Monday, 15 July 2013

feel ? rasa ?

selamat berpuasa everyone ! it's about a week kita berpuasa di bulan romadhon al-mubarak, beribadah lah hendaknya kepada semua. gituu.*x pernah aku berkata2 begini*

pasal aku punya entry hari ini. rasa ? aku tengok perkataan "rasa" tu pun dah terbayangkan tengah me"rasa" makanan yang enak-enak. punyalah tak kuat iman, perkataan tu pun boleh potong markah puasa gua tau. bukan nak cerita pasal rasa pakai lidah. cukup masin, manis bagai. bukan ! sebenarnya cerita dia bermula dengan kawan aku.

pada suatu petang nan indah, angin bertiup sepoi-sepoi bahasa melayu *rosak peribahasa* biasalah, aku ngn kawan-kawan aku melepak di gazebo bawah kolej kami. kami syok sembang, mengutuk sikit mana yang patut, gelak ketawa bagai. situasi dia lebih kurang macam ni lah :

kawan 1 : ni kalau dapat ABC lebih jagung petang-petang ni terbaik jgk doe
kawan 2 : kau jangan buat pasal ! nak ajak kluar la tu. tapi..aku on je. wahahaha *setan sangat gelaknya tu*
aku : janganlah korang, kita x study abis lg kan *ttibe2 aku berlagak suci*
kawan 2 : punah rancangan jahat aku bila dengar study.

dalam masa yang sama kawan 1 aku tengah on call. dan dia kembali.

aku : lpas isyak malam kang aku serbu umah korang tau. siapkan meggi tau.
kawan 2 : banyyyaa...
kawan 1 : aku dah break ngn Dollah *bukan nama sebenar*

dengan muka tenang tak de perasaan dia cakap macam tu. dalam hati aku wallahua'lam la kan. our conversation petang tu bertukar mood sebentar, kawan 2 dan aku cuba untuk cheer the mood and it goes really well. bab2 nak menghuru hara kan keadaan memang serah kat aku dengan kawan 2. ktorg pro. haha

so as time goes by, aku tengok dan observe kawan aku yang break tu. elok je, tak de plak meroyan tunggang terbalik ke hape. kak jemah pun musykil. sebabnya, dia dah in relationship ngn bf dia about 3 years, and they are planning to get married after my friend grad from degree. but unfortunately, they broke up !. aku ngn kawan 2 aku tu penat memikir. adakah dia ok ? adakah dia akan meletop suatu ketika nanti ? before dia meletop, it's better if she spill everything out. and that what's friend worth for. right ? right ? *cepat kan right !* hehe

so, at one night masa ktorg tgh tgok muvie baik punya. tp dalam kepala otak aku ni, curious. there must be something ! aku pun dengan secara tiba-tibanya tanpa persediaan bertanya. penyibuk tau kau ni. tp demi kawan kan. eheh.

aku : weh, kau ok ke ?
kawan 1 : aku ke ?
kawan 2 : yela kau je yg baru break skrg ni.
kawan 1 : aku ok je.

......krik..krik...

kawan 1 : aku memang dah lama nak break, tp aku selalu fikir aku nak kawin ngn dia and hv future with him. *air mata bergenang* but ! aku dah jadi x kisah bila aku sorang je yg pk nak elok kan relationship ktorg. aku dah malas, aku dah penat, aku tak kisah dah. *senyum, airmata hilang. x tau sedut pegi mana*

lpas daripada tu, dia sendiri yg akan cerita if something yg ex-bf dia buat. mcm call dia pepagi buta ke. text dia ke and what not. dan dia bercerita dgn emotionless. bagus kawan ! itu menunjukkan dia ok :)

so, apa yang menimbulkan prasangka aku adalah, banyakkan yg bermain fikiran aku ni. aku pun kekadang tak paham dgn diri sendiri. ahaks ! the thing is, mana pergi rasa selama 3 tahun tu ? x kan hilang mcm tu je.

bila dipikirkan balik, give up on someone is after you give them your everything. selama mana pun kau berusaha, tapi kau tahu usaha tu x pernah cukup tuk orang yg kau sayang tu. masa tu, kau kena berhenti dari berusaha utk dia, tp berusahalah utk diri sendiri.

apa yang aku nampak dan rasa, bukan senang rasa sayang tu nak hilang. hati dah penat, lama2 jadi tak ada rasa. it take years to vanish it, but it's not possible. and once it's gone, it's possible to have it back.

orang boleh cakap. 'aku tak kisah dah' tp every second check fone whether that person text you. itu 'kisah' nama dia.

orang boleh cakap. 'biarlah dia nak buat ape' tp everytime online stalk  berjam2 lpas tu frust. itu 'tak biarlah' nama dia.

kau akan 'aku tak kisah' bila dia text kau, kau baca dan sambung tengok CSI. bila CSI lebih memberahikan dari text dia.

kau akan 'biarlah dia nak buat ape' bila kau ternampak dia retweet love love dgn gf dia. dan teruskan tweet mcm biasa. bila tweet runningman nak dtg m'sia lg memberahikan dari tweet dia.

and, at that time ! you should be proud of yourself and smile : D
i do proud of myself : D

selamat berbuka puasa everyone !